Saturday, October 2, 2010
I know someone who lives near their family... they have one child left living. I just think it strange that this person wants to move away for access to better restaurants, and a fantasy thought life about where they are moving to. When asked "what are the reasons for leaving your loved ones"...the reply went something like this.."better weather..better restaurants"..What restaurants..I want some greek food.. HMMM.. Lets see.. you are approaching 80 years old... This grown child looks out for you..You will be separated by many many miles...you don't get around as well as you used too... BUT the food is better there...So basically you are trading in the last years of your life for what you love most...better access to restaurants...So your family is being traded in for some Greek food... Maybe you can understand it...I can't.........
Sunday, September 26, 2010
I don't look to or depend on the action or actions of any other person to weigh whether my faith is real..
Not letting the actions of another drive me or disappoint me away from Jesus. It is Just Him and me. He is the only one I don't have to pretend for! He has truly been the only one who meets me where I am..including in doubt, depression, anger, self hate and all the other strange mental places I at times find myself in...I don't love and appreciate Him for making times good for me..I love and appreciate him because he helps me when times are not good whether real or imagined..
I have to have what is real..I hate pretending....I can't abide things I don't believe..
I have Jesus and I don't pretend for Him
Psa 139:11 I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night—
Psa 139:12 but even in darkness I cannot hide from You. To You the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to You.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
There are times of change that need to take place in our lives. These times call for a forced rest and a cessation of prior activities. I am experiencing this kind of cocoon time in my life...In truth more is happening in this cocoon then in my previous business...It is just hidden from plain view. Of course we know that a beautiful creature will emerge from the caterpillar's cocoon... Well I'm not a caterpillar but I know that the Lord will do a good work in me and bring a radical transformation. I was inspired by Rachel Fowler and Rachel Richardson today and it led me to think.....
Friday, June 18, 2010
I really love being a dad...My girls are grown up now but I still want to be with them, talk to them, and much to their chagrin protect them. Jenny always tells me "I'm 28 dad I can handle it myself".... When they were younger I would always stand up for them if they were wronged..this included visits to teachers and principals. They were a bit embarrassed about it but as they got older they liked the idea that someone would be there for them...
As I said I love being a dad....I have told my wife and girls that when I die I want to be missed..A LOT... I want them to say how will we go on without him... of course they will though...what i mean is this...I want to be a good husband and father..dedicated to my wife and family... And when it is my time to go home to heaven they will always remember me fondly and yes always miss me...
PS This means you too Kavi! ( I love being a grandpa too)
Sunday, May 16, 2010
He drills into my pocket of desperation. His spark ignites these deepest frustrations of my being. I explode from deep within saying help me Lord, save me Lord, and oh please change me Lord. A few tears flow, I feel hope and a release of pressure. The pocket of desperation has fulfilled its intended purpose in moving me closer to God. I can already feel the pressure building in other areas of my heart.
Psa 51:8 Oh, give me back my joy again; You have broken me—now let me rejoice.
Rom 7:24 Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death?
Rom 7:25 Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Raising the dead, healing the sick, moving mountains is not what i think of when powerful comes to mind. ......Being heard, being raised up, being a mega church mega man mega whatever is a human desire. So many times (but not always) a misguided self indulgent desire. I know this from personal experience. This is the dream of many i know and have known too.
I think God's dream is for me to love Him and other people.
Being the least in your own estimation is not such a bad thing......Make God and others the most. I guess I am pretty much cured of wanting to be a big shot.
Php 2:3 Don't be selfish; don't try to impress others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourselves.
Pro 27:2 Let someone else praise you, not your own mouth—a stranger, not your own lips.
Well one great revelation I have had in life. I am not so great. I see many people who are a whole lot better than me. This actually inspires me to want to change and I think that is a good thing. I try to find good qualities in other people and try to buck the natural tendency to criticize. Seeing the depths of my shortcomings inside my true self really helps me do this.
I am not a hopeless case just kinda hapless. I am really enjoying learning my weaknesses (a few at a time or i might get really down)...anyway i do enjoy not pretending to have it all together..I think God likes it too....
"'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.'
"Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10